If Only...

First word: Haizzzz.....

Actually di ako katulad ni Anne Frank na puro personal masyado ang nasa diary. Kasi nga naman una, hayag to, internationally. So kapag nagsulat ako ng mga specific names, events at kung anu-ano pa basta specific. Di rin ako pwede magsulat ng direct to the point ng mga nangyari dahil nga may nagbabasa nito. DI bale sana kung mamatay ako saka nyo pa lang to makita. Kaya please understand kung hindi ako magbibigay ng mga specific things dito at puro pasaring lang...

Actually this should be written yesterday but due to some circumstances, it was not pushed thru. So here....


Disappointed lang talaga ako sa mga nangyayari sa ngayon. So disappointed. May mga bagay kasi na hindi maipaliwanag thru words. I mean halimbawa, meron kang biniling condo unit overlooking Metro Manila. Then may nagtayo ng isa pang building sa harap mo. How will you feel? Alam mo yung feeling na oks na lahat tapos bigla na lang na HAIZZZZ...

Well wag nyo pagisipan ng matindi. It's not just the seat okay? If you are Daniel, you might know kung ano talaga. But unfortunately you're not. I'm the only one. So walang makakaintindi. Actually if you look at it in an isometric way, mababaw, walang kwenta. Pero kapag tiningnan mo in the perspective point of view, meron talaga akong pinapahiwatig. Pero kung medyo di mo inabot ang aking stage, wala. Yung tingin mo eh mababaw lang talaga. But you may believe in anything you want.

So ayun nga. Oks na sana kahapon. Actually di naman sobrang oks. Pero okay na rin. Kaya lang Ngayon. I was REALLY, REALLY, REALLY GLOOMY. Npaka-lungkot ko. It feels like the world is falling down on me. Not just the world but the Solar System. Akala ko talaga, I would always see Metro Manila but I was mistaken. Alam mo yung feeling na umaasa ka tapos ayun. Akala ko kahit ilipat ako ng unit, basta same floor, at overlooking pa rin sa Metro Manila, okay na. Pero I was mistaken. Kinabukasan, nagtayo ng bagong building and Metro Manila was out of my sight.


All I can say is haizzz.... I was almost establishing everything in my condo unit then POOF. Gone.


What shall I say? None.. Ngayon alam ko na kung bakit ganun ang lei ng mundo. If you can't understand forget about this thing.